Long time no see!

So I have been thinking about blogging recently. I just looked at my last post and it was done two years ago. Boy I'm a slacker.

I'm having a hard time sleeping right now. It sucks. I have a lot on my mind.

Life has been good. I need to remember that.

Things are great at work...I have a great boss, lots to do, people look to me for help more than ever and I think they respect me and I guess you could say I'm a "leader".

Ryan...is still the best thing in my life. My best friend and the sweetest person I have ever known. We had our ten year wedding anniversary in February and we went on a Caribbean Cruise to celebrate this milestone.

I'm always busy with "craft projects". Currently I am knitting a baby sweater for my friend Vic who is having a baby boy in January. Her baby shower is this Saturday and I'm hoping it will be done by then. And I almost forgot to mention...I tried to make our Halloween costumes this year. My mom and sister ended up helping me with most of my dress.

I'm also proud to announce that I have lost 53 pounds since changing my eating habits and trying to be more active.

Also this year I found out that I have a 7cm fibroid in the wall of my uterus. For two years I have been dealing with discomfort and pressure in my pelvic area. This is also the reason why I have never been pregnant. I guess it has been hard to deal with. But I'm dealing with it. I decided in March/April that I needed to be positive and do everything that I could to try to "fix" myself.

Seven months have passed and I'm almost made up my mind.. in 2011 I will have a myomectomy done. I have never had surgery and I'm a bit afraid. The next few months will be super busy with the holidays and preparing my body for a major surgery. My goal will be to lose more weight (maybe 20 more pounds) and also visit my current doctors and maybe get more opinions.

I never thought that having kids would be such a big fucking deal for me. I need to remember that no matter what happens...I need to be happy.

I usually don't mind talking about my personal life and this one is EXTREMELY emotional for me. But I feel better writing it down tonight.